Preface – This post
was written last night when I was feeling very overwhelmed and it came at the
end of a rather stressful day. I’ve had to make a few house related decisions
and I have fast realised that I don’t do so well when the pressure comes
a-pilin’ on and my sidekick isn’t around! I umm-ed and uhh-ed about whether or
not to post this and decided to ‘sleep on it’. I woke feeling a lot better
about everything but still think that this post is one that deserves to be shared.
It shows that life doesn’t always seem easy or even manageable all of the time
– but it also shows that by changing perspectives you can ensure that you feel
a lot more ‘settled’ and calm about whatever situation you might be facing.
Please know that I’m now very happy and calm and in control of how I’m feeling
so this post definitely DOES have a happy ending! I actually believe that the
simple process of writing exactly how I was feeling was a catalyst in turning
it around and feeling a little more at peace. This post may not be for
everybody and it definitely differs from my typical ‘genre’ of writing I guess
– but it’s unapologetically me x
Current State of =
Overwhelm; Paranoia; Distress; Uncertainty; Fear.
Since starting this
blog and embarking on my ‘wellness journey’ I have tried to adopt new and more
optimistic perspectives - however at times the reality of life and everyday
worries and stresses can still take hold of me.
In the past 12 months
(or so) the following BIG ASS changes have occurred in my life
+ moved out of home
+ moved in with
boyfriend
+ started working in a
small rural community
+ purchased a private
practice
+ lived alone, on and
off, for 6 months (during boyfriend’s 4 and 1 roster)
+ got a dog
+ been away from
family and friends (for the longest period to date)
+ managed a number of
roles in volunteer groups and interest based groups
+ started a blog
+ purchased our first
house
In all honesty – I am
tearing up as I type this and, at the same time, am overwhelmed with a sense of
relief ‘ugh, no wonder I am stressed!’. The past 12 months have been HUGE and I
am so grateful and proud that I have come out the other side of it and I look
back at the things that I have achieved and smile – but eff me that’s a long
list of changes. With these amazing changes and experiences comes a hell of a
lot of commitments and it loudly calls for independence. Having never been
someone who stands confidently on her own two feet, this monumental influx of
new responsibilities has near paralysed me and I think is the reason for a few
‘run down’ sicknesses as of late.
I am, by nature, a stresser.
This is perhaps why D and I work so well together – I overanalyse and stress
for the both of us, and he’s the one that calms me down and rationally breaks
down the issues and shows me just how ‘do-able’ everything is. But at the
moment I’m ridin’ solo and I don’t have D in my ear telling me that we will get
through it and that there’s nothing to worry about. So … cue stress hormones
and over-active imagination (‘what if I can never go away on a holiday or never
buy anything ever because I’m a slave to the mortgage?!’ or ‘What if people
realise I am a terrible speech pathologist and my practice goes bust!?’).
I completely
acknowledge that these are irrational and fear based thoughts and serve me no
purpose at all. By writing this post today, I am attempting to witness my fear
and, by doing so, make them seem insignificant and obsolete. I’m sorry you have
to read through my therapeutic ramblings but in writing this blog I want to
share uplifting and inspirational messages with you – but also want to maintain
a completely honest and a genuine narration. Life isn’t always perfect and you
don’t always ‘feel’ like being happy and doing affirmations and choosing to see
the ‘upside’ BUT I do know that how I’m currently feeling is likely detrimental
to my health and just a plain ole’ nasty way to feel so …
I’m-a wave my positivity wand and
practice my LOVING perspective and kick ole fear to the kerb. Care to join me?
Letter to Myself – a love note
and much needed reminder
Hello darling
I know life is fairly ridiculous at the moment
but know that everything in your life is the result of the choices you have
made along the way! YOU have created this life and would you have created a
shitty life? Heck no! It’s a little overwhelming but let’s break it down and
crank some affirmations for different areas of our life – they always tend to
help us!
+ Career – I AM passionate about my career and
it reflects in monetary reward; My practice is booming with more than enough
business.
+ Finances – I prosper wherever I turn and I
know that I deserve prosperity of all kinds; My income is constantly
increasing.
+ Travel – I have the means to travel abroad
whenever I want.
+ Peace – Everything I need comes to me in the
right time/space sequence; I trust the process of life. All is well in my
world; I am ALWAYS safe.
+ General – I think and speak positively.
Calm down, seek perspective, trust the
universe, trust yourself and get excited. Life is a gift and we need to
appreciate every single aspect of it.
Love from me (you) xx
Blessings from my
completely stream-of-consciousness posting style x
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